Strange that my title this time around is a contrast to the tv show I had listed as what im watching in my previous journal. In any case, I love the song 'Flashback' by Calvin Harris. I've listened to it obsessively in the month between this journal and the last. At least it's not been 2 months since my last journal this time!!

Just hovering on that song for a moment, the video and lyrics take me back to the summer and of course, Portugal. Just reminds me of wandering through the streets with a group of friends from here or ireland and having a great time. I think it's also like what im looking forward to doing in the coming summer in Ireland. Im trying to curb expectations, though. It will be vastly different. Weather wise for a start! But, the fact we were in the same building as all the irish folk made for a lot of the enjoyment, this time we're in their backyard but we probably wont see them as much, and they'll probably act different in their home surroundings and people they know. I really hope it's not a let down anyway and different isn't always bad. In anycase, I love being on holiday in foreign lands and exploring them. Just being away from home is great, not that home is that bad to an extent but if i could take my friends and family out of home and put us all somewhere else, I would 9 times out of 10.

Continuing on all things Irish, I guess im still not good at letting things go or maybe im just in the process of letting go? I thought I had for the best part of the time since I wrote the last journal but in the past week or so I feel like I've re-ignited, somehow, the feelings I was letting go. Sometimes the most random of things, like a daft dream, just kick starts things again and it seems that way right now. Ultimately I don't know if I'll let go of them before Ireland next year, I don't know if I want to. If I did, would they just be re-ignited when I get there? At the moment I'd say most likely. Meh, at the moment im just getting on with things anyway, no point in moping about it. It's helpful to write about it to try and make sense, though.

December 8th, hopefully i'll be doing a seminar at Manchester United's Old Trafford. Presumably I'll be there overnight or something. I wonder if I can stay for a few days more! Basically ill be doing an evaluation thing on social, emotional and psychological skills and then the seminar is about the results of the evaluation and how to apply them and improve your performance. If I get the time off work, it should be pretty superb. I've also come accross the first scholarship offer thats really struck me as being one I could go for. One not far outside Atlanta, Georgia. The team is in a pretty good league and seems in a good way, they're in a conference semi final. It's also got a couple of english, irish and northern irish lads in the team which would help me settle in quicker also. So the football scholarship side of things is looking rosier than ever, finally. Not like I was losing patience with the process, I know I was doing the right thing by biding my time, but I don't think I can get over how dire living in this town is sometimes!

I actually dont have much else to write about, gym time is going fine and work is really the same as always.

I would like to say, exsuscito, stop acting like you're going to leave and break off all contact with the interwebz world for travelling. We all know you wont pull a HT and disappear. Well, we all hope you dont

Ugh, im sure ill think of something else once i've submitted but oh well!

Peace out, thanks for reading and take care. x